Tuesday, August 30, 2005
I'm making a quilt i'm finishing it it's really boring it's a plain patch quilt 4 mah grandma and it's annoying me!!! lol i wanna make this new one i came up with this idea that seems really cool and all so but i need light blue material.
Sooo i haven't eaten today at all cuz nothing here good to eat! (did i just mix that sentace up?) miss my friends or x-friends i dunno it is like i'm trying to come back into there world and theyr'e pushing me out. Maybe it's a mistake i feel so dirty or something. Even here things have changed. I wanna join a homeschool building or w/e i want to join the Girl Scouts but i don't hink i will they've changed ALOT and i guess it depends on the troop or something. I did fund a Christian alternitave to the girl scouts but it's like 2 hr away from mah house so blah to that.
I wanna babysit too but then there is a qustion to wear? We live ina small neighborhood and we don't talk to alot of ppl i mean we talk but we on't know the ppl that have kids all like that.
Mah church has a needs and seeds thingy i can put under seed babysitter. I was also thinking about teaching Piano my teacher officialy a while ago gave me permission (wink wink) to teach it was a compliment realy. yes my spelling sux somtimes i know.
I've misssed alot that has happened i guess but alot has happened with me too. I don't "Do anything around the house anymore" So that's why i haven't been getting allowence my mum said. and she says over and over that i don't try to change and that i'm getting worst what does seh know? Cuz i AM trying to change she says it like i want to be a jerk or something. I dunno Shani is drifting i guess and stuff. I'm worried about other stuff that ppl say don't be i have to and anyone who knows me well should know what i'm talking about. maybe i'll sew some mroe. eh, no way not now. Gilmor Girls is on yay! maybe i'll watch that. Then go downstairs. I gotta talk to Emmie but she's at school and i dunno what time her lunch is...ah well maybe after school is out 4 the day..
this weekend i'm going to VA with mah fam i'm looking at Bush Garden's Site. and the show irsih step dancing thing reminds me of Si she'd love it prolly. maybe 4 mah bday we could take a weekend road trip and stay at mah grandma's house. That would be SOOO fun! w/o parents.
Oh, yea i think 'm starting Ms Judy a gain that idout hudson didn't show up for my lessons when we drove almost an hr to get there! Ugh i never liked him anways lol More lter!
I hope Gen's 1st day of school was good along with all mah frrinsd or now x-friends.
http://www.buschgardens.com/buschgardens/va/as_irish_thunder.aspx
Btw: i'm so dub that i posted it in the wrong place! lol what's that tella bout me holla back!
Posted at 05:17 pm by Giggless92
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Friday, February 04, 2005
Great,
Genni left...*sigh* then stupid meredith IMs me that makes my screen freeze i write b4 gen left do u gotta? but it was typoed and she just left anyways.
My day WAS going well.
but the site of Daddy i leave the room!
i get emo 4 not reason! ugh...when she Ims me it's like it dunno what to say. geesh i wish My K/Kris was on WAAAAAH lol i'm stalking her seriously i am lol
Bad day i guess to day and good day too
Posted at 06:44 pm by Giggless92
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
AAAHHH,
I wish i had somene who i could tell EVERYTHING to!!
Posted at 07:12 pm by Giggless92
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Friday, January 21, 2005
Well, i didn't get a chance to get on earlier today so now i'm on...Genni just signed on too. and the Ames...haven't talked to her in a while.
Krissy didn't IM me she went to away then came bak when Jesse signed on...
Well...i asked Shani to make the invites 4 my recital and to order Shannon' b-day present for me on her card then i'll pay her bak in cash. I think he'll love it least i HOPE so.
I'm feeling a bit better about the piano and the songs but the Bach Minuet is like hard! But i'm AM NOT giving up, check it?
I'm feeling betta special thanks to me (yes i ment to say "me" Boy *hug*
Me Boy loved J's flower and so did i it's REALLY good he thinks so too and he's a REALLY good artist fo showezy babe ^_^ he said he can't draw flowers worth anything but he sure can draw other things REALLY REALLY well AND he writes poetry i've known him like 2 yrs now. He 4got my age like i 4got his he's 17 and he guess that i was 15-16 I wuz flattered! he said things won't change or anything he's cool like that he's a really good friend. He said i was ..."had a good view of things" lol we always have interesting convos over philospy or what not. Stuff like over poems he read that are way rad...AND he loves like 45 mins from me LOL.
I also schooled him in on h/s and explained it to him.
Well a snow storm is comming over the weekend...hope the eletric stays on!!!!!!
More LATER!!!
Posted at 04:18 pm by Giggless92
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
Well, i'm sill really stressed out and stuff over MORE things.
I can't let anyone know though, I don't think Gen'll come here unless i tell her that i posted...I am already causing her enough stress! I'm confuzzled big time over everytimg...mabye i gotta let Krissy go...but then she'll ALWAYS be around because Genni and her are bff and ugh i'll always have this akward thing with Gen being HER bff...thinking about Genni going to school makes me even MORE sick. It's not about me but i'd be miserable with out her. and i'd never be able to get on the phone with her...our friendship would be destined to non existants i'm sure. :*******(. But i'm sure Kristen will find some way like calling Genni or something like that...I mean there friendship has lasted this long why won't it keep going? i can always keep getting hurt by Krissy! She is ALWAYS doing to me and if i bring it up she's going to get all mad and block me AGAIN! This is like almost hopeless or she'll think i'm "accusing" her my gosh!
Posted at 10:20 am by Giggless92
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Haven't been here 4 a while.
Gosh, things really are falling down just likes leaves!
I'm so stressed over the piano i messed up this week and next week i can't screw it up again! I have to practice 5 songs (2 learn to play well, one learning a song 4 recital in Jund, and the other one is to see if i like it and another is one i memorized but i still gotta practice to keep it "crisp') and it's really stressing me out big time plus the Krissy thing and other stuff.
That hell dream has been freaking me out since i had it. *sigh* Gen said don't worry but i'm kinda scared. then it's the J thing i love her so much i hate seeing her always beaten down and sad. Me AND J gotta do some letting go. Her to Chris and me to...well anyways, I'm have X-second thoughts on the recital what if i screw it up? I wanna invite Emily i gotta write my list out. Guess i'll do that soon. I bought a CP Disk it's called "My diary" it's really awesome u can do voice, pics, video, typed and more entrys! it was only $1 from target. i love it already! it's got killer differnt things that are really hi-tech ^_^ .
Maybe we can help J exspress herself through writing or poetry instead of cutting like take it out in something else like kick-boxing! Screaming, stuff like that.
Oh, i'm so worried about her.
Then i'm stressed over me "Out of Shapeness"
I gotta get Shannon his b-day present with mim money!
*Sigh* AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH
I'm so SICK of this i "HATE this ARGH WHY DOES DADDY THINK HE'S SO RIGHT? HE THINNKS HE KNOWS ME SO FRIGGIN MUCH. Maybe i shOULD DO SOMETHING TO FREAK EVERYONE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE ELSE HAS SOMETHING TO LOOK 4WARD TO LIKE THE TRIP TO VA TO MEET EACHOTHER, GOING ON A CRUISE, MY BROTHER IS SO SCREWED UP, SHANI IS GETTING CONFUSED NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME AND I'M SICK OF IT DANG IT!
Posted at 12:01 pm by Giggless92
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Monday, October 04, 2004
Today Daddy was being a butt grr like always these last few days :'( Firt i stabbed myself with a pencil by mistake (it only pushing some skin u) so mommy asked daddy what to put on it and she had to tell him what happened. So he's like "How'd that happen? Playing around?" Momm said yes, "I knew it you play with chicken bones, forks, and now penicls" Or he saidd something like that!. Then when me and mommy was playing a game 4 math he said that she was helping me! I mean scuuuse me 4 not being sooo perfect like u oh daddy-o :'(. So then, he says it in this loud voice while he eats stupid grits, egg, and chicken from last night. Then he said,"stop telling her the anseres blah blah blah!" but she wasn't! I was just learing it. THEN, he said when I got some of the answeres wrong that, "See? u helped her so much that she don't know them." But i did know them I just didn't care anymore and i was about to cry i just s aid, "I don't know." So then he says "She'snot trying to remember the answeres!" by that time we finished the game. Thank god and i started to cry. Daddy said he didnt even say anything he just burped!!. I think he impied he don't think i'll commit to keyboard well i will show him!! and he says he so easy to talk to well no 4 me i pretty much stopped talking to him I don't care. Sometimes i wish he would die or i would it's not fair!! :'( :( :(
Posted at 11:13 am by Giggless92
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
Sometimes don't u ever wanna cry anc cry till nothing left of u but your soul? And u wish maybe your soul will be beautiful and nice...unlike your fleshy cover? don't u wish? It doesn't matter not the keyboard, the lesson or anything I just wanna cry and i wish somone would be there to hug me but no one will be that I want.
Posted at 03:34 pm by Giggless92
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Sorry Shanna, but the BRAG grouping was totally random...I don't know how it came out that way, but it did. Sorry...don't feel too bad, I even forgot someone, and now I gotta go through and edit it all! grrr....
Posted at 03:16 pm by
Genni
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I'm in a 'BRAG' group with ppl i never even talked to! and Kris and Gen are on the same team along with Josh *role eyes* and Julie! No fare grr!
Posted at 03:08 pm by Giggless92
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