Haven't been here 4 a while.

Gosh, things really are falling down just  likes leaves!
I'm so stressed over the piano i messed up this week and next week i can't screw it up again! I have to practice 5 songs (2 learn to play well, one learning a song 4 recital in Jund, and the other one is to see if i like it and another is one i memorized but i still gotta practice to keep it "crisp') and it's really stressing me out big time plus the Krissy thing and other stuff.

That hell dream has been freaking me out since i had it. *sigh* Gen said don't worry but i'm kinda scared. then it's the J thing i love her so much i hate seeing her always beaten down and sad. Me AND J gotta do some letting go. Her to Chris and me to...well anyways, I'm have X-second thoughts on the recital what if i screw it up? I wanna invite Emily i gotta write my list out. Guess i'll do that soon. I bought a CP Disk it's called "My diary" it's really awesome u can do voice, pics, video, typed and more entrys! it  was only $1 from target. i love it already! it's got killer differnt things that are really hi-tech ^_^ .

Sometimes don't u ever wanna cry anc cry till nothing left of u but your soul? And u wish maybe your soul will be beautiful and nice...unlike your fleshy cover? don't u wish? It doesn't matter not the keyboard, the lesson or anything I just wanna cry and i wish somone would be there to hug me but no one will be that I want.

Sorry Shanna, but the BRAG grouping was totally random...I don't know how it came out that way, but it did.  Sorry...don't feel too bad, I even forgot someone, and now I gotta go through and edit it all! grrr....

I'm in a 'BRAG' group with ppl i never even talked to! and Kris and Gen are on the same team along with Josh *role eyes* and Julie! No fare grr!

Genni was just on the blog i got on then 3 mins latta she wasnt! and to add to the BAD morning i have to dust me stupid room!! :'(

Okay yesterday was confusing more like yesterday night! Amy thinks she is a femaldog she said cuz we had this fight i guess b4 and she went to go to a walk anyways Krissy really helped me while i was crying buckets (thanks God it was DARK :D) And amy apoogized which i have to say kinda took me off guard. But I was happy she did! so then i said sorry cuz i was at fault then wetalked! it was great! no fighting and it seemed like she was enjoying herself too! :) thank u LORd :-D oi i also found some awesome stuff out but the bible i wanna talk to someone bout it!

I feel like a total jerk Kris AGH gott talk to u sOON

Okay, today was a great day. I went to this great mall wid my sis and my brother. Then we went to Hackmans Christian Book Store! And i didn't even get a head ache then we went to this book sell thingy that has like 80% bookys then got Chinese food then came home at like 6 something! and then watched TV then watched TV did my nails 4 fun and now it's 11:00pm. :-D.

YAY today I found all the info on the Brio Pen Pals bad news is that i haven't talked to Krissy today hopefully they still went shopping and went to walmart and got a mic too :-D  I talked to Gen i'm feeling better about us now after we talking :) But some how i don't know what she ment about "Don't bug it." Doe she think that's how I am?? I guesss so and she's proably right. I can't wait 4 the bilb reading to sstart please ppls i need all the prayer i can get about school :) :( ? I hope ppl don't thin that i'm annoying and mean.

The bad news about the Brio is that i feeld everything out and it's ready but i didnn't put it inth mail box yet :( I hate bugs so much AAAARRRGGGGGHH. I hope that me Krissy and Genn can be tight no maata what you know what I'm saying? I wrote a poem about Ames now i'm not 2 sure about it. It's like she doesn't wanna be my friend anymore or something....but then again like ppl said she takes a while to get 2 know and understand it's like she doesn't care anymor, all well.
and Jc...is....nvm

I found my Newsboys CDs that u burned a LOOVE Phil's voice. I had a crush on him 4 the llongest time b4 i even like Newsboys lol i would watch the video nt really listening but just look at him (not lustfily or anything but ya know). When i found out he had a wife (remember i wasn't a fan so he could have been married without me knowing) i was like humph w.e lol. But now 4 the longest time i had a Crush on Nick Brown (i'm not a girl who thinks everyone is cute these happened a LOOONG time apart) but i found some stuff about him. Then it was James but he's not in my class so anymore at church :( i told Gen about him. Now it's bak to Phil lol just kidding. I want someone to sing with me "It's a beutiful sound moving through the crowd voices lifted up on hight 4 u...." Continue someone! and Cor-ni-luis (sp?). "If you don't get what you deserve it's a good thing real good thing..." "SOrry i'm not your cup o' tea but i don't mind yea i said i don't mind least i know you're thinking about me...." "Holy, holy hallalujah he reigns..." "You're love 4 me is iresistable I can't fight it i can't fight it yea, you took the cross...." WOOHOO now i wish somone could get on line :) like Krissy, Kris hmm does it seem that i'm abbsessed with her? lol maybe that's cuz I AMM MHUAUAHAHA.

Oh and all while listening to Beautiful sound i felt like dancing but my sister was in the room SHOOT lol ;) j/k or am I??? *mysterious look*